10 February 2021

Ok, like before, this is my audition photo, taken for 2020's in-school audition w

I'm back after almost 1/2 year of hiatus 😭😭

I'm not even sure where to start from.... Ok! Let's go by flow ;w;

First....
I have a lot of excuse for not updating this page ;_;
1. Blogspot's creator page has changed.. The writing page to be exact. I'm having hard time editing my photos ;-; That kinda made me lethargic and reluctant in updating..
2. Baito got super busy after summer holiday ;w; to be exact, I spent more concentration on my baito comparing to any other part of life (including school) during last 1/4 of last year ;w; well, I take it as probably the same thing will happen this year as kids enter new school year in April -> stuff will only calm down after summer holiday -> kids start to come to my school!

Next...
As always I'm so thankful to everyone who always support me. I already broke down in late January ;-;..

Updates from August
-August: start of summer holiday? I remember that due to COVID19, instead of 2 months, I only got 1 month of holiday. So I'll mix it with September @@
- September: I told myself to get driving license this year (as I turn 25 in 2020, and it's my birthday present) but at the end I'm still waiting for my practical test due to queue and barely time to practice ;w; Then I went to Osaka for my birthday. Officially visited USJ for the first time!! Went to DisneyLand for the first time too! Luckily my birth month is my summer holiday so I also visited Shinagawa's aquarium XD
- October: I only remember Halloween event at Baito & I became Ariel and everyone was surprised as I wore wig w ofc another reason is I no tell anyone that I do cosplay w
- November: no recollection.. I think I took a day to visit DisneySea after a year of not?w
- December: another emotional breakdown due to COVID19. For the first time I was directly affected (baito). Travelling also cancelled TwT..
- January: New Year was so quiet but I started very positively... until I got another emotional breakdown w Oh! I started teaching Japanese online too!w

I am super thankful for my partner's support in December ;w;
I know it's late to talk about New Year resolution (nor looking back to last year) but lemme write them here.. It's like another excuse for not being able to update ;-;
1. January's goal (1) - PASSED written test for getting driving license ;w; there are 2 ways to get driving license from scratch in Japan; join a boarding school for 10 days OR the one I'm doing; normal driving school. Then, I need to go through 1 written test (50 questions, with at least 45 questions answered correctly), 1 practical test -> to get 'temporary driving license'. Next is to go through 5 days of driving practice on real road with experienced driver (teacher) -> real written test with 95 questions; 90 points + 5 questions of 2 points. 90 points needed to be able to reserve slot for real driving test. So I cleared everything and now waiting for the real driving test. I also needed to join a 1 day class to learn about first aid & driving in highway; just done yesterday 😌as I've never learned about first aid before, it was interesting (how to do heart massage & using AED). I also used SEGA simulator to practice driving in highway @@
2. January's goal (2) - Took Chinese HSK level 5 exam. Wanted to clear this at first half of 2020 but exam was cancelled due to COVID19. Missed the exam in December 2020 as I couldn't find the entrance to the exam building orz BUT I have no confidence in passing this so may take this again later this year..
3. February's goal (1) - Currently waiting for the driving test. In less than 1 week!!
4. February's goal (2) - I have a list of 4 characters to costest T_T.. I hope I can clear at least one and post it for Vday this Sunday ;w;
5. February's goal (3) - CLEARED; recorded another food vlog!!
6. April's goal - Get 'Child Coaching Advisor' qualification! I want more confidence in my baito (will be my full time job form April)!
7. May's goal - Financial Planner 3 qualification. Completely a new world to me but it's interesting and easy to understand that I'm motivated to study every night @w@
8. August' goal - 'Young children English Instructor' qualification
9. November's goal - Thai Language Proficiency Test Level 4. I cleared Level 5 in November 2020. Need to read the alphabet faster @_@

I'm chasing after so much qualification as I think I really need them to survive =w=
At the same time I love studying.. So at least I'm studying what I'm interested in = easier for me to understand + what I think are applicable in life
I'm also aiming for Translator (English - Japanese) Proficiency Test & Financial Planner level 2 next year...
Is this adulting; TOTALLY NO COSPLAN....

Emotional breakdowns lately;
- December 2020 - mainly because I need to change my student visa to working visa
- January 2021 - I've started studying for FP every night + baito kinda got busier that I just feel like shutting myself from SNS. I'm honestly taking less and less pics and lesser thing to post even for my IG stories T_T I really only have food, even for my own personal photo diary. I'd even forget what happened the previous week as I only have baito & study done T_T well, Tokyo is also in state of emergency so lesser go out too T_T life just became so boring and plain while I want to achieve so many thing but I need to wait (FP in May, Driving License in February).. I don't wanna do anything related to SNS.. I also rejected 2 works that need me to be 'V Kanon' though later one I gave them second chance but I still need time.. I'm also not doing well in dieting orz

Plan from here on..
1. The same with last year when I rebooted my blog; I always keep photos to post regarding each month ;w; somewhere inside my heart I really don't wanna give up blogging and twitting so... at least for February, I wanna update blog 2x (excluding this one. Means for March 2020 & April 2020)
2. I FINISHED SCHOOL!!!! So I really have more time.. I'd study & somedays do gym before baito. Thus after baito, my schedule is write report, study & edit vlog or blogging or twitting! My partner also got me table & chair so I can be glued to do my blog w no more back & knee pain from seiza-ing w (kneeling)

Stuff that were updated
1. My baito's YouTube page; https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCywDBYSSvzbGL3awIdRQwBg
Somewhat using what I learned in school? Voice acting?w anyway, I'm doing like 80% of each video (creating the slides, editing, voice recording and content)
2. My YouTube channel; https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzIHMF_tntdYoUy_R8anFQg
I uploaded 3 videos? one is making gingerbread house with my partner. Somewhat I take that as annual event (?)w

Alright!
Everything is all over the place but I'll do my best!